I left an institution because of my belief that it will never make me grow as a person living an artificial life. Why artificial? Imagine a life being in an institution wanting you to be a unique individual but in the process asks you to be like other people. With same schedule everyday, asking us to do this and to do that, to follow this and to follow that but they themselves are the ones who are not living up to what they were preaching. Well, aside from those simple things, I left the institution because I had a girlfriend at that time and I know that it was unfair for her seeing me in that institution wherein girlfriends are not allowed, and at the same time I don’t want to cheat that institution by having a girlfriend. But before I left the said institution, I was overwhelmed by fear. My deepest fear is the thought of being devoured by the society I’ve never known, the thoughts of being alone and unprotected through the fangs of reality.
Well life is just. And in order for it to be just, we must give what is due. Now after more than a year, I’m still the same person but with a different personality. I’m living an independent life trying my best to catch up from the reality I was deprived for 5 years. I’m working for a company that somehow teaches me to be strong in facing reality. Although there are times that I feel desolated and alone, I have friends, a loving and caring family, and my pride of being able to stand alone and pursue my goal of growing as a person. I’m living a life worth living setting my own expectations. People can’t tell me what I should or should not do. I like what I do. I do what I like, but of course in accordance to what is just and what will make me a better person. An author once said in his book that a person’s only goal in life is to discover his personal legend. And, I am proud that I am now in the process of discovering that personal legend. No matter where the road to achieving that personal legend takes me, I’ll take my chances. Achieving it or not is not my main goal, it is the fact that I tried and I was satisfied while in the process of discovering it. And since everyone always has a choice, I chose to take the road of completing my purpose as a project than to regret not having to try it at all.
Our Deepest Fear
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond
measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most
frightens us.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond
measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most
frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?
talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world. There is
nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people
won't feel insecure about you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to manifest
the glory of God that is within us.
nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people
won't feel insecure about you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to manifest
the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give
other people permission to do the same. As we are
liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically
liberates others.
----Marianne Williamson
other people permission to do the same. As we are
liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically
liberates others.
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