Lately I've discovered that I usually cant finish a thing I've started. I know I procrastinate a lot, but I was able to finish 'em all up before deadline or something. I'm not sure if it has something to do with the deadline or if I really am not just into doing it.
Ok, here's the scenario: I usually start doing things because it somehow catches my attention and would like to try it out. I usually enjoy doing it at first and learn a lot during the process, but after sometime, another thing would capture my interest thus wanting me to do it as well. So I will start with the new thing and leave the other one behind uncompleted or unaccomplished. Then again in the process of doing or completing the new thing or pursuing the idea I've found, another thing will somehow capture my interest leaving the other behind and so on and so fort.
Weird thing is that after leaving one idea behind I can no longer go back to it, or somehow I can but I already lost the interest in doing it that I don't want to go back. Makes me wonder if the only reason I was able to finish something before is because of the deadline given to me or if it is a requirement that I have to do in order to achieve something.
Come to think of it, when I started working I was really enjoying what I was doing at first, and after being a regular and making it as one of the top employees, I started doing things as if it were just part of my everyday life and the enjoyment I felt before just disappeared. Boom! Nada! So , I decided to quit then and try a new one and set a new goal.
Speaking of goals, I just realized while writing this that maybe it is my goal that is not set quite right. Maybe, because my goals then were somehow within my reach, or I set it up knowing that I can easily achieve it, it somehow lead to my discontentment.
Thinking about all these made me realize that I need to set my goals higher. I need to set it to something I can't easily achieve. Something that is hard to achieve but is achievable. Then again, after achieving it what do I do next? Maybe I should set it to something that I know I can't achieve so I'll keep striving to achieve it? But, what happens if I get frustrated not achieving it and just forget about that goal since I know I can't achieve it?
Funny. The reason I started writing this is because I just want to clear something in my head, now after a few minutes of writing I ended up having more thoughts to ponder than clearing the thing in my head.
Ok, now let me start helping myself up by first finishing this entry. -the end-
Well what do you know, I just happened to finish something that I've started, this blog. :P
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