Never A Waste of Time

(written July 17, 2012)

It's hopeless. I've been exerting all the efforts I can and all of them went to waste. What a random circumstance it was, us meeting together. I wasn't really looking for someone since I just recently broke up with my ex not too long ago. But then she came to my life to ruin what was a peaceful and quiet life. I guess it really does happens, shit happens. 

The days we spent together though were the most happiest moments of my life. Every single day we spent together were days I really treasure. She thought me a lot of things, mostly about lessons in life. Ironic as it is, she thought me one of the most important things I learned in life. That you can't always have what you want. Sadly, I learned it the hard way. 

Now I feel like I'm in a constant battle with the emotions I'm feeling. The battle is yet to be won. Whoever wins I wouldn't know as I am battling with the shadows of what I did to make me feel this way. 

I don't blame her for anything. It was I who made the decisions that lead me to this situation.

"It's what I want. It's never gonna be 'wasting my time'." --Anonymous