Procrastination

Back when I was in college, I crawled my way out of tons of research works with the cunning art of cramming . I've always done my paperworks usually the night before the deadline, or early in the morning and submit it right after printing it. As my fellow ex-seminarians call it, "mainit- init pa". When I was in my senior year in ICS, we were given 3 months to review for our comprehensive exam and I reviewed 1 week before the exam. I remember one of my classmates was not able to eat because of the pressure while some of us were just having it easy. Life is easier for us who know what we are capable of and we know that we can do certain things given little time. Yes, that's the usual excuse-- well at least for me and for some friends that I know.

Yes I procrastinate a lot, not because I'm lazy -- well okay maybe I'm a little lazy, but also because it makes my brain work faster. It makes me think easier. Sometimes, my brain works so fast and a lot of thoughts are caving in that I'm even having problems just organizing those thoughts. It's not because I'm stubborn, it's just that I'm happier doing things my way. Some people call us underachiever. They say that we could be more successful if we don't procrastinate. Well, they're right. But still I say, "fuck that bloody idea!". Kidding.

Now that I'm working, sometimes I wish that cramming would just be a part of a night-long dream and that when I wake up people will know me as the man who doesn't cram. I must admit that I'm getting better at it-- dealing with eye bags due to cramming I mean. Well I don't pretty much have a choice but to deal with it.

I want to change my way because I know I can achieve more in doing things ahead of time. I want to leave this pandemonium where crammers meet. The journey towards the end of the tunnel where people don't cram is still a long way. But I'll venture it out. I know that there is a brighter future ahead. I'll find my way out of this mess even if I have to cram my way out. Haha!